A is for Anxiety

An article by Rachel    1 Comment

I wasn’t going to participate in the Encyclopedia of Me meme until I read Megan’s post. She wrote about agony, a close cousin to anxiety; an emotion that controls me. A few years ago I realized that I hate feeling anxious. I can’t barely sit still to watch a suspenseful move even though I want to know how the story ends. Not only do I deal with anxiety for outside sources,  I create my own. I torment myself with an emotion that I hate.

How do I create anxiety? Easy. When I need to make a decision about my life I lament over. Research the pros and cons until my sweet husband can barely stand to be around me. More often then not, I do nothing. I don’t want to deal with the consequences of a bad decision. Then I get upset because my life is going nowhere. Ok, I’m sure most people who are reading this are thinking what’s the big deal. Make a decision and see what happens. I agree with this thought.

My first decision is to bite the bullet and enroll in a continuing education class, Introduction to Design. I’ve want to do this for some time, but life always seems to prevent me. I’m going to acknowledge now that I’ll face obstacles like my job, church activites, traffic, and just basic time management. These obstacles don’t mean that I’ve made a bad decision. They are just apart of life.

It feels good to let go of a little anxiety.